I have attempted it, a few too many times then i care to remember.

yep

for ages when i was in about year 10-11, i had really long hair, never tied it back cause i had rope burns.

your the only person i’ve ever told that

you have started a ‘happy’ thread as I understand….

@extraslim 424786 wrote:

but you changed your mind?

yeah just thought about my family, and was it fair ln them.

but its not say its not in the back of my mind, just its more apparent when i’m genuinely upset and so so sick of everything, but, my mum she hooks me up when i get like that, 3-4 diazepam, pile of trammies and 1-2 happy pills. I prefer mixing them simply cause i get in such a mess (from meds &emotion) it knocks me for ghe 10 count, by the time i’m awake i can’t remember why i was so upset and, you know

but thats not the point, ok there free and i do bosh the pharmaceuticals, but it the fact my mum does it for me, and she learnt from sending me to a depression clinic that no matter what i will/would not co-operate with them, cause the way i saw it was, they spent 4 years at uni, to help those in need, have many of them been in that situation?
thankfully, *touches wood* i don’t lapse back to those times

@p0ly 424788 wrote:

A shotgun in the mouth aimed up at my brain? sounds like a fucking certainty to me.

Bloke round here did that and blew half his face off, survived and walked half a mile to a barn and hung himself:crazy_diz

@Southcaver 424814 wrote:

Bloke round here did that and blew half his face off, survived and walked half a mile to a barn and hung himself:crazy_diz

Its a myth perpetuated by films and TV (even in USA where you’d think they’d be more realistic) that people get shot and drop down dead straight away.

One reason that Yanks love guns so much for “defense” purposes is because even if someone is fatally wounded if they are good shot they still have enough time left to kill their enemy with their last bit of life, so both familes lose out in a gun battle.

This is called “mutually assured destruction” and is the main rationale behind US gun culture (as the presence of an armed defender is supposed to deter an attacker) and is also a major aspect of their military/foreign doctrine.

Never attempted it. thought about it during one of my really severe drone comedowns once but then smacked myself in the face for thinking such a stupid thought.

Would never kill myself though, doesn’t matter how bad things got. There’s too much shit in this world I’ve yet to see.